Some of you may know my why - I do what I do and use the tools that I do so that no one has to feel like I used to.
How I used to feel was overwhelmed, sad, dark... like I just wanted to curl up and pretend the world didn't exist. For me, I hadn't lost the will to live, but it was like I wanted to de-tach from reality. For me, relief came in lying in bed, not doing anything.
Today, I have nothing against lying in bed not doing anything (who doesn't love a good sleep-in or a lounge around on the weekend or whilst on holiday) but it's different when that comes with an apathy for engagement in anything. I literally, DID NOT CARE anymore. It was all too fucking hard so lie in bed and sleep I did.
Through my work as a Craniosacral, changing my thoughts through coaching and learning lots of great things, I have been able to manage these issues without medication (since I came off it). But recently, it's been a bit of a struggle.
I've noticed my 'cloud' (which is what I call this issue) edging closer and closer every day for the past few weeks.
Why you ask? What has changed?
Well the answer my friends, is NOTHING. I'm more active than ever before, I eat pretty well (except for some sneaky takeaway every now and again and of course, my beer weakness every so often) and I surround myself with positive vibes and people.
But you know what, sometimes, there is NO explanation. The cloud just comes and there it is. Like a foggy mountain, my head is just filled with apathy again. The flame that I usually feel in the pit of my tummy urging me to get going is out. Done.
This time however, this fog is gonna get gone.
I've really let people in on this cloud this time - and talking about it certainly helps. I've practiced heaps of self care - I bought myself flowers which I LOVE but never do. I put a face mask on and went to bed. & I tried not to tell myself off for not getting to my "list".
And as for that list, I tried to do a tiny bit each day. I also asked for help with my business strategy which has been taking up too much mental room and I think I have been avoiding for fear of doing something wrong (is anyone going to die, no Anna, they are not - so just do it)!
It worked. After a week or so of feeling absolutely shocking, I can honestly say, I am heading back to the sunny space.
My advice (which won't work for everyone) is as follows:
1) Recognise what is going on - feel the feelings. You've felt them before.
2) Don't ignore it.
3) Look at what you can drop right now (ask the "is anyone going to die question?" and let go of the things where no one is).
4) Pick one small thing each day and celebrate it with self care - flowers for yourself, a trip to a shop you haven't been to in ages, dress ups with a friend, a cuddle with your cat, I planted my herb garden and I found that incredibly relaxing... whatever it is treat yourself.
5) Tell people how you are feeling - tell them you're feeling rough and take the kind thoughts they pass on with gratitude. You are allowed to not be perfect.
6) Reconnect with peeps you haven't for ages but who you love. They've known you for a long time - rekindle the friendship talk about your life. They can offer unique perspective.
7) Sleep - go to bed at a set time and get up at a set time - adjust as required.
8) Have your coffee after 2 hours of being awake & up - reward the getting up out of bed and being awake (which, yes, is hard in this state) as a celebration and give yourself that boost once you have made it to 2 hours up. I love this trick.
Give these things a go & let me know how you go xx